Merriam-Webster defines a wallflower as “a shy or reserved person.” The Urban Dictionary describes wallflowers as people who are shy and fade in the background. People that no one really knows or pays any attention to.
I would consider myself a wallflower. . . Sort of. I despise being the center of attention. I am an introvert. I would rather be with one good friend than at a party with many. When I have to speak in front of a group of people, even if friends, my face turns red, I start to sweat, and my voice trembles. I am most comfortable when I know no one is noticing me.
There is this other side of me, however, that longs to be seen, heard, and noticed. Inside I scream, “I have an opinion about this!” I admire those who seem so confident and sure of themselves and are able speak up without a quivering voice and red face. I am at a point now, though, where I have come to accept this about myself. . . my wallflower status, that is. I am pretty much okay with it.
This blog is my attempt to stretch myself but still remain true to who I am. It is an avenue to “speak”, but to do so within the context of my personality. To be honest, I’m excited about it. I still don’t know what I will write about. I can guarantee it will be random, sometimes silly, sometimes serious, sometimes reflective. It will be what it will be just as I am what I am.