Report: Be Brave Project

It’s been more than 30 days since I began the Be Brave Project and I’ve been trying to figure out how I can adequately communicate what the project did for me.  Even though I never verbalized it, I think I had hopes that the project would propel me into this new world of gregariousness, adventure, and fearlessness.  In my naïveté I saw myself speaking up without reservation, never second guessing myself, and becoming this big, bold personality. 

Can you say. . . “Pipe Dream?”. . . In essence, I thought I would cease being, well, me.

Over the last 30-plus days I have challenged myself in many ways.  I have. . .

-Made phone calls I would have rather avoided
-Spoken up when I would have typically stayed silent
-Told a few people about this blog
-Stopped running (okay. . . I didn’t really have a choice, but believe me in the past I would have run anyway)
-Been spontaneous
-Risked failure

. . . to name a few.

As I began doing some of these “brave” things I realized something. . . I am still scared out of my mind.
This was not the result I was hoping for.  I found myself feeling frustrated because I wasn’t becoming this  bold, outgoing person. . .

Nope, I was still me. 

But something happened when I wrote this snippet of my story.  As I recounted the details of my journey with my Mom it was as if I was seeing the entire experience through new eyes.  Through the writing of the story I was given the gift of objectivity and as I watched my part play out, I saw a girl who was scared every step of the way. . . but who was also brave.  It was through telling this story that I recognized that bravery is not an absence of fear, but rather a moving forward in spite of fear.  I found myself getting excited as I realized that the girl in the story would not cower in fear when it really mattered.

I am the girl in that story and while I may never jump out of an airplane or give a speech in front of thousands of people, I have no doubt that when it matters. . . I will be brave.

“Courage is not the absence of fear but the judgment that something else is more important than fear.

Meg Cabot

  • Trophy Life - October 22, 2010 - 11:30 am

    i am proud of your bravery!ReplyCancel

  • Charbelle - October 22, 2010 - 11:48 am

    I love that you recognize that bravery comes from moving forward despite being afraid and not avoiding something just because you are fearful!!!ReplyCancel

  • lisa - October 22, 2010 - 4:12 pm

    Hey- I mentioned you in my post today…Hope you don't mind. 🙂ReplyCancel

  • Anonymous - October 26, 2010 - 3:43 pm

    You have a gift…keep writing!ReplyCancel

  • Hummel Family - June 6, 2011 - 10:39 pm

    Amen Sista! You ARE super brave! So glad you are realizing that. 🙂ReplyCancel

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