Big Sigh

Today I sat with a woman who has had a huge impact on my life.  An incredible woman whom I have sat with for several hours every month for the past five years. 

She is my supervisor.  This lady is so much more than a supervisor, though.  She wears the hat of encourager, guide, mentor, and helper.  In all honesty, I am honored to sit in her presence each week. 

Recently, she has been advising me about how to advance my professional career.  How I might break through some barriers, tear down some walls, and develop at a quicker speed in our field.  We have had these conversations for months and while there is a part of me that wants to run down that path and fight my way to make a name for myself . . there is this other part of me that is perfectly content to say. . . For now, I’m a Mom.

Today, I got up the nerve to say these words to my supervisor.  Her response?

Your time with your children goes so very fast.  Your first call is to your children. 

Big Sigh.  (Of relief)

Oh, don’t get me wrong.  There are so many things I would like to do in my life.  So much I want to learn.  So many challenges I would like to face.  So many dreams that have yet to come true.  If the world were a great big swimming pool. . . I have yet to dive in. . . to the deep end, at least.

For now, though, I am content to spend my days drinking in these dimples that completely wreck my insides as my heart swells with love. . .

And I’m quite fine taking in the hugs and kisses of little ones each and every day. . .

And I’m okay with practicing deep breathing when things don’t go the way I want them to go. . .

I can even take in the moments when they are less than pleased with my antics. . .

. . . because I am all too aware of how quickly the time is going and  how little of it I want to miss.  Little by little my grasp on them gets looser and looser as they develop wings and gain independence.  So, I continue to take it in and enjoy the simple moments that make up motherhood, knowing that there is more than enough time to “make a name” for myself. 

And even if I’m only ever known as “Mom”. . . I think I’ll be quite content with that. 

Take your time and be everywhere you are.”
John O’ Donahue

  • Trophy Life - November 19, 2010 - 12:07 pm

    that face in the last picture says it all! i enjoy that you captured it. : ) you're doin' big things and many big things wait for you in you're future. i'm sure of it.ReplyCancel

  • Sassytimes - November 19, 2010 - 12:57 pm

    You remind me of myself at times. I never thought I'd be a SAHM. Never. But, once I became a Mom, I felt nothing else was as important. I worked so hard on my career, then just gave it up like that. I have urges to get more involved, and have opportunities thrown at me all the time, but something in the back of my mind tells me to turn them down…now is not the time. Hopefully, like you said, those opportunities will still be there when my children are grown up and don't need me as much.

    Love all of your photos! (and the daily reminder to keep my head in the right place) 😉ReplyCancel

  • Written Permission - November 19, 2010 - 2:23 pm

    I JUST wrote about contentment this morning! Twin minds, we are. 🙂

    Loved this post. You're a fabulous mama, with your all your priorities exactly in the right place.ReplyCancel

  • Ky • - November 24, 2010 - 2:26 pm

    Best line ever: For now, though, I am content to spend my days drinking in these dimples that completely wreck my insides as my heart swells with love. . .ReplyCancel

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