A record of the incessant and trivial chatter running through my head.
 I feel safest in the shadows. Unnoticed and unseen. In a crowded room I will be on the outer edges, probably near the door. I will be the one observing. The one hoping to blend in. . . the wall flower. I’ve always attributed it to personality. I’m an introvert. Quiet. Timid, but not shy. […]     When I read beautiful words, I record them. I write them down and return to them over and over again. I revisit them. I turn them around in my mind and even try them out on my lips. When the words really strike me, I see how they fit into my life. It never ceases […]
 She’s four today. Four years old. I will skip the cliche’ “where did the time go?, although I do feel that. I will, however, take this moment to honor this beautiful little girl on her special day. This incredible soul that entered our life on a crisp fall afternoon and with one look into our […]
 “I’m sure it won’t happen quickly”, I told him. “It will probably take months, if not years, if ever. Let’s just trust that God has a plan for us.” These were some of the things I said to Chad last winter before we decided to let go of the “control” of our family and see […]
 “Everything changed the day she figured out there was exactly enough time for the important things in her life.” -story people Have I mentioned that I love story people? When I read this quote I was struck with the reality that I have yet to completely grasp this concept. Always feeling as if I need […] |
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Interesting thoughts…
I, too, am an introvert.. A shadow dweller. (are you surprised?) I find myself saying I'm going to come out of my shell at whatever event and push myself to be more extroverted…but then, I get there and it feels so awkward to me. So uncomfortable and just, well, not me. Although I don't think being introverted is a bad trait to have, I want my girls to be more confident than I am. I want them to 'shine' as you say and not feel awkward about it. I often wonder how to help with this too.
Oh…the talks WE could have. I think we would have a hard time stopping if we were to walk in the woods and converse together. 😉
I'm telling you, Summer, you really need to read Beth Moore's "So Long Insecurity" book. It addresses some of your very questions and gives insight that is beyond amazing. You have to get the accompaning group discussion book that goes along with it though–even if you just read it alone and not in a group…it makes a world of difference in what all you get out of the study.
Also, I would encourage you to listen to the two sermons my pastor gave last fall on who we view God as and who we view ourselves as. They were life-changing to me. Not that it changed my personality, but it did change my perspective and helped me learn who I really was. Maybe you would discover you really aren't living in the shadows after all or maybe you would and then discover who God really means for you to be. I went from being "stupid" to "esteemed". I would love to see you KNOW (and I mean FOR SURE KNOW) who He has made you to be. Here are the links to those two sermons, if you want to listen to them…they are recordings of our whole service that day, so you can probably forward through quite a ways to get to the sermons.
1) Where is God when Life Hurts?
http://sermoncloud.monkserve.com/EKK/150/mcch20101114.mp3
2) Reclaiming Your God-Given Identity.
http://media.monkserve.com/EKK/150/mcch20101121.mp3
A beautiful dream to have for yourself and your kids.