A record of the incessant and trivial chatter running through my head.
 During the final moments of the evening, I lay in Chanelle’s bed with my 4 and 6 year old nestled on either side of me. Tonight I could tell that Chanelle was extra tired as she buried her blonde locks as close to me as she could so even the tiniest light couldn’t pass through […]     My eyes popped open to the xylophone sound of the alarm clock of my cell phone. I stared at the numbers on the clock and attempted to clear the fog from my head. . .6:00. I stared at the snooze button on the alarm as I participated in a morning debate with myself. . . […]
 The internal dialogue went something like this. . . Why would I take self portraits? It seems kind of. . . vain? Self indulgent? Uncomfortable? Why would I spend time doing something I abhor by placing myself in front of the camera? Besides, who am I to think I could even tackle such a project? […]
 . . . our family changed forever. Three months ago, in the chill of the early morning hours, Chad and I walked across a darkened parking lot loaded down with our bags and our uncertainties. We walked into the maternity ward of the hospital while our hearts pounded nervously. How is our life going to […]
 “I always wonder why birds stay in the same place when they can fly anywhere on earth. Then I ask myself the same question.” –Harun Yahya Do you ever ask yourself questions like this? Do you ever dig deep in search of what you really think? What you really believe? What you really feel? Who […] |
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So beautiful, Summer. Best wishes on your return to work.
I love your comment on teaching them real life. I went through the frustration of not being able to spend as much time teaching them 'educational' things after V was born. I felt like I wasn't doing a good job because I wasn't practicing letters and numbers with E or reading and math with S. But then, one day, I heard them talking to V, telling them how much they loved him and it hit me. It didn't matter if we took a short hiatus from 'educational' things…I was teaching them how to love someone. I was teaching them how precious new life is. I was teaching them the importance of family. I remember just feeling so much calm then. You are right, they truly DO teach us. I love that part of parenthood. Such a blessing.
And I can not get over how old/big Meadow looks all of the sudden, especially sitting there in her Bumbo. These babies need to slow down the growing up thing. 😉
Another fabulous post! Good luck returning back to work. I also work one day a week, and can't imagine handling "all of it" having to work full time. I would be a bit more of a nut I think. Which might be scary :)Thank you for sharing such great words and pictures. You inspired me to finally start my own blog. It is exciting to start…a bit intimidating. Oh – and I am number 55!!